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Differences... a new battle?

Tue Nov 13, 2012, 3:16 PM
Yes, I'm no longer: 'Goddess-ofthe-Night'

The site will close down before the end of this year and be renamed.
I've learned that even when you are nicknamed as a 'Goddess'
People look different at you. I want to use the name I use as 'online' avatar: 'Sahtori Kamaya'

When I'm in Florida my RL name will change too.
I wont be a 'Coenen' anymore but I'll cary the name of my father and I'm changing: 'Karine' as well.

So my mother wont be able to find me anywhere on this world...

This is what I want...

I hope you understand.

So expect a lot of changes.

I'm sorry I turned quiet. I'm thinking how in the world I'll be able to move.

Cause... *grins* I'm going to get kicked out by my mother, but I don't care...

I no longer feel the bond to keep on saying: 'Yes' and continues forgiveness...
I feel different... I feel I finally feel that knife she has put on my throat before birth...

and now, I pushed her away and I sense I'm running to all dirrections for her not to hunt me with that knife...

I have no money or anything anymore thanks to her 'robbing' need in Kusadasi... So, ... I need to figure out how I can earn money, besides a job, since I'm still in a program of Adante. Tomorrow I will tell them I need to be out of there asap. I finally will talk to my doctor.

I had to laugh someone said: 'You are really positive and strong.'

I had my first Brony meet last saterday but I had to return into my 'own' world (as they call it - but it's not what you think it is...)
I had to lay down and sleep, feel, see and heal. (I had a major cold)

It's amazing that social contacts in RL can really exhoust me to the moment that I pass out and need days to recover...

I wonder what's up with that?

Meeting and standing next to Gabriel Iglesias, a person I really look up to has made me really happy, especially when he signatured my skethbook for luck.

It's really amazing... Those small things in life can make me smile so much... It's really amazing.

I don't need fame, I don't need money, all I want is ... freedom...

But to get to the point I need to be, I need to think how I run away. Cause moving with Madoka (my ferret) and my belongins + health is not going to be 'cheap'

I supose in the end, it will be worth while, so is this my new battle?

-K



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:iconryu890:
Ryu890 Featured By Owner Nov 15, 2012
*hugs* I'm proud of you Sahtori. :)

Your journey is...inspiring. I admit, I haven't exactly been there the whole way through....

But I still wish you the best of luck.
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gojira4life Featured By Owner Nov 15, 2012
*cries* Guess I won't be calling you Karine anymore... I'll be missing you when your gone sis. But I'm also very happy for your mental determination and your grand ambitions, it makes me proud to call you sis :D
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Sahtori-Kamaya Featured By Owner Nov 16, 2012  Professional Digital Artist
Lol, you can call me like that if you want ;)
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gojira4life Featured By Owner Nov 17, 2012
*hugs* love you, sis!
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PieMan24601 Featured By Owner Nov 15, 2012
We understand karine. I'm so happy everything is starting to get better. =3
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xXxtamdasexmonoxXx Featured By Owner Nov 15, 2012  Student General Artist
alright. i like the name Karine.i wish yo the best of luck.
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Nektarios-Cat Featured By Owner Nov 14, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Go for it. Why anybody would knock you down for 'Goddess,' I don't know. But I'm seriously looking foward to seeing the new you after all this. Good luck to you.
~Be Strong! :heart:
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:iconmarc-the-one:
Marc-the-one Featured By Owner Nov 14, 2012
I wish you luck, and may good fortune come to you.
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GuyaricanKitten Featured By Owner Nov 14, 2012  Student Digital Artist
A new battle worth fighting, I'm sure. I wish you luck in your endeavor and the best possible outcome..
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Art-iRenia Featured By Owner Nov 13, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I hope it all get's on the right path for you. :3
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barodiusfan Featured By Owner Nov 13, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I hope you will have a new life and I wish you good luck my friend
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WhiteRose810 Featured By Owner Nov 13, 2012
I'm glad you're finally breaking free. :) Good luck and seriously, stay positive! :hug:
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shadowthehedgehogzx Featured By Owner Nov 13, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
its good to hear ur moving to another place where u can enjoy ur freedom n hopefully to new life =3, i wish u luck on ur new life my friend :hug:
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lightning198 Featured By Owner Nov 13, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
You do what you think is right for you. Fine by me. ^_^
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Galm03 Featured By Owner Nov 13, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Nice for me ^^ You must do what you think is right for you...
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KyutiHuni Featured By Owner Nov 13, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
hope your better from your cold and it will be worth it in the end.

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thatnerdyowl56 Featured By Owner Nov 13, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Best of luck for you, dear :heart:
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Dasher-Dart Featured By Owner Nov 13, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Sorry that had to happen, hope you can find a job and earn some money. :hug:
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PreciousMiseries Featured By Owner Nov 13, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
i'm glad to hear your changing alot for the better anything to get away for the she devil. XC but i do hope things will become better for you and look brighter. the states are starting to recover from this economy. :D so good luck and make sure to let me know when you move down here. i wanna be able to call or message you the biggest welcome ever! <3 :D
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Sombraluz-Images Featured By Owner Nov 13, 2012  Professional General Artist
I'm glad things are changing for the better! I'm still praying for you. Just keep us posted with the changes. E-mail me ok? :hug:
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TurkeySM Featured By Owner Nov 13, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Change for you is so great! I'm so happy for you! Best of luck to you!
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Sorain26 Featured By Owner Nov 13, 2012  Student General Artist
Good luck dear :hug:.
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Silvador Featured By Owner Nov 13, 2012
It's sad that you are forced to take these measures to break free of the ties of family. I hope that this change will allow you to flourish as you should have been able to before. I wish you the best of luck with your move.

And, as far as I am concerned, you will always be 'Goddess of the Night' to me. I think it is a beatiful name and it is the name I first met you with, so I will forever remember you as such.
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Skunkman001 Featured By Owner Nov 13, 2012  Professional Photographer
I wish you luck! :hug:
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Jiroah Featured By Owner Nov 13, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
You'll always be a goddess to me~ After all, someone can change their name, but they'll still be who they really are. And to me, that is a goddess. :) (And don't look at this and laugh, because i'm serious! Only a goddess can be as strong as you)
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kaput6no Featured By Owner Nov 13, 2012   Digital Artist
A fresh new start... Good luck. :)
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:iconangelgirlfan:
angelgirlfan Featured By Owner Nov 13, 2012  Professional Digital Artist
i understand hun i wish u luck and hope u do well.funny im actaully in florida^^'
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:iconfyrrea:
Fyrrea Featured By Owner Nov 13, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Good luck! :hug:
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SpecklArt Featured By Owner Nov 13, 2012  Student Digital Artist
:hug: Good for you~
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EveDaring Featured By Owner Nov 13, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Well, yays for you! Andwait- you have a FERRET?! That's AWESOME! WOW, THAT's FREAKING AMA-I'm missing the point. Um, yeah. Yays, but uh....did you say you're basically running away? As in, you haven't even told her? As in, she, does not, even, know?? THAT'S......quite the life trek. I'M.....both impressed and slightly jealous because that sounds like QUITE the adventure. Heh, but well, I shall give support-on all the way! *pumps fist in the air* Internet hug! :iconbrohugplz:
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:iconfreakkatt:
FREAKKATT Featured By Owner Nov 13, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
You'll be far better off when you move in and finally get a way to settle ^^.
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DarkDragon247 Featured By Owner Nov 13, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
All the best to you and keep going ;)
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OkamiLover22 Featured By Owner Nov 13, 2012
I'll miss you...
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foreverknight13 Featured By Owner Nov 13, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
we all have our battles, some more fierce than others. I'm glad you are doing so much better and I am proud of you sis.
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Ask--Cadence Featured By Owner Nov 13, 2012
((I'm praying that you get a job and money.<3))
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PeachSapling Featured By Owner Nov 13, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
You have all of our support sistah. All of it. :3 Don't let anyone get in your way! For I can see that spark that you were born with turn into a firework.
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ShuyinTheEnigmatic Featured By Owner Nov 13, 2012  Student Writer
You have my fullest support, ma'am.
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:iconailisea:
Ailisea Featured By Owner Nov 13, 2012  Hobbyist
Good luck with your life, I'm sure you will finally get rid of your past the moment you'll go away from your country ^^
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Blaze1090 Featured By Owner Nov 13, 2012  Student General Artist
best of luck! you have my full support!:D
if your having trouble with heath care costs, Canada has its arms open~ :meow:
free heath care:)

take care~:heart:
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Limey-Boy Featured By Owner Nov 13, 2012  Student General Artist
You have mine, and everyone else's support and guidance. keep calm and carry on my dear! :hug:
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rushforza Featured By Owner Nov 13, 2012  Hobbyist Artist
looks like ur finally getting what u wished for.........freedom for ur mother (witch).

I do wish u luck with urself and hopefully you be able to get a job in florida aswell, u need it.

U got the whole of Team Blaze Racing supporting u.........may do a car design on forza if I get chance.
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duruxi Featured By Owner Nov 13, 2012
:iconletmehugyouplz: hehe I wish i could ACTUALLY hug you right now. I think you're new name is awesome. Glad to hear you decided to change it up, like SkyeWare said, it's good and it's what makes us human. Just keep doing what you love and keep fighting. GOOD LUCK SAHTORI!
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tsunamidusher Featured By Owner Nov 13, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
You have our support and you know it. Your life is your own, no matter what anyone says or what anyone has tried to tell you.

If this is the choice your choose to make, I'll back you up as much as I can, even at this distance.
I wish you the best :blackrose:
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Killjoy-Detective Featured By Owner Nov 13, 2012  Hobbyist
i wish you the best of luck :cuddle:
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extremespeeds Featured By Owner Nov 13, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
:cling:
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GnarledContradiction Featured By Owner Nov 13, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
:huggle:
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SkyeWare Featured By Owner Nov 13, 2012
That's amazing to hear! ^^ And change is good, change is what makes us human. Change is for the better and it can't be stopped. :hug:
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