I had over 100 almost 200 notes in my dA -mostly I've been inactive and the other part you know - SICK -
Now, I got a lot of problems, I'm sure you are all aware of that -
So, I'm opening commissions and I'm making a sheet.
For now, I open only 1 commission at the time
'I get sick suddenly and forget (again) and disappoint people - and that's not what I want.
'I have along other syndromes: "Chronic Fatigue Syndrome" - reasons WHY I'm inactive suddenly for long periods of time. I need rest and I can sleep for days on a row, I'm not kidding you here, I'm struggling with it since 2006 and still going. It means when I put effort in 'work' I get easy tired out and it takes me over 4 days to recover and sometimes weeks. Going to the supermarket is for me a 'hell' because I'm to tired and way to weak. That's why 1 commission at a time.'
'Did I mention I'm forgetful?'
I lost my map during 'moving' it all happened to fast, so I lost a few clients, their names and their commissions, not to mention some were finished and my drive was crashed.
So, I went through a lot of notes and it's horrible for me that I can't remember and that I didn't gave a 'swift' and 'fast' reply, since I'm not all the time on dA, FA, Inkbunny - whatever the case. You can contact me more on FaceBook the link is at the left - because it's connected to my phone, I forget less if you use that option.
Because it 'beeps' and wakes me up.
So, all I can do right now are 'sketch commissions'
I'm not going to 'enter' digital right now - I'm afraid to make mistakes - and I'm still recovering from 'a lot' of things that happened recently (Ferret-loss, new syndrom RLS and the return of the tumor)
So far I don't need to get to worried about my leg, I got medication and we'd look how that would turn out.
The tumor however, I need to be in observation for over 2 weeks, treatment and everything included - but I can't afford it.
I'm living on 'pocket fruit' as food or 'nothing' at all.
When a Belgium friend invites me, then most of the time they invite me to dinner and I'm very thankful for that. But the worst part is that I get sick afterwards, my stomach doesn't want to cooperate with me - for years now - but it's now getting worse - because of the medication - so I take a lot of Omneprazole to up to 120 MG. That's bad, trust me.
So - without further 'whining' of myself.
1. If I owe you, contact me - please on FaceBook - I can see those messages better.
2. Be patient, it will come to you - 'LAW OF ATTRACTION' If you want it - you must believe in it
3. Don't use 'difficult' words. My english is 'Standard' I've noticed that the past few weeks.
4. IF you have a commission - REMIND me in a soft/gentle matter - I don't want to stress myself out - thinking the client is horribly upset with me. It makes me want to crawl back into bed and not move for many days - So please BE GENTLE.
5. Sit back and relax.
LiveStream one of the many questions I got in my notes.
I'm not going to promise - but I will go back to sketching busts - online in a 'hopefully' not so far away future...
But I will Livestream soon - Don't forget - I live in a student house - So it's difficult sometimes for a good connection. Thank you *sarcasm* Mother and Katty that I'm in this position.
So again, please be patient with me.
Now I only open 1 slot right now and that's a sketch in my sketchbook commission.
If you like the sketch and I go back 'digital' you can ask me to 'continue' it. But so far - I only like my sketched work and not my digital works.
My eyes have difficulties 'adjusting' sometimes - it's horrible with those screens - I do must say.
I'll make a 'price sheet' soon too, but I have no idea what my art is worth - I work sometimes many hours on it... and sometimes it looks so horrid that I scratch the first idea off.
A sketch commission of ONE character is 12$
First one who asks - will the first one to be served.
Just comment on the journal.
Again, because some people inform me that people still say I'm asking for 'Donations'
I'd like to point out, what you just read is the first time me mentioning that word in the entire journal. I'm not asking for it.
If you want to donate - go for it - it's up to you - I'm not a LAZY bum that GETS what SHE wants because someone else works SOOOOO hard for it and never GETS what IT wants. If you think like this about me, 'fine' I can't change your opinion about me. But I can prove that I'm not a liar - and don't ask extra money to go on 'trips' and a 'certain themepark'
So if you think like that about me - Then I'd wish you'd carry a few seconds of the pain - I'm not going into self pity mode - I have heard enough the past weeks - months how others tell me 'My life is worse than yours'
Good, I know that everyone has a different life, I respect that, I think of all the children who are now in poverty, bad family, handicapped, who are now living in a world that's facing total 'destruction' of the planet. Wildlife slaughtered for our own consumption, forest torn down so we'd have furniture. I haven't met many people when I was in the protest against the slaughtering of Dolphins in Brussels.
Not many people CARE about WHERE they are STANDING on this PLANET - This is everyone's home - so serve one and another - love one and another. Because it comes all in the same big bowl anyway.
Now I'm going to ask to DONATE but not for me. Save the Dolphins from the people who are slaughtering them right now in Taiji.
I did my part, I stood there in Brussels and I donated what I could, (yeah you read it right) .
I had a verbal fight with WWF in Antwerp who sell 'key chains' to adopt a Tiger, Dolphin, Panda etc.
First of all, when they said: 'We are helping dolphins' I said: BULL$h!t! Go to TAIJI! Your boss earns millions of $ a year. (His respond: Well he deserves it) If I were him, I'd donate that money that's been earned - so all those companies like Greenpeace - WHERE are you?
Seriously - So next time if someone says to me: 'You and your self-pity!' I'm thinking more about the planet than myself - the past I took more care of my family than myself...
So now without further baby-rant
Share this LINK to everyone you know - to help Ric'O Barry to help the dolphins!
This is the official site - so don't worry if your money is lost to a company who is taking advantage of it.
Save what you can save on this planet because they are for our children and our children's children... Let them have a better world than we are having now...